I had my clinic appointment at Vanderbilt yesterday, and I went into the appointment feeling great. I just wanted my numbers to improve from February. I'm still trying to get them back to where they were before I got the flu in December. I thought for sure my lung function would be at least slightly better. In February, I was at 50%. On my first attempt, it said 44%. I just stared at the screen dumbfounded. That couldn't be right.... there's no way it went down! At that point, I was just angry, so I went into the second attempt with all the effort I could muster up. 47%.... I was not happy at all. I tried again.... 47% once more. The respiratory therapist asked if I wanted to try again, and being the stubborn person that I am, I of course wanted another chance to make the numbers get to where I wanted them. I put everything into it, and..... 47%.
After that, I had a really difficult time cheering up and getting back to the positive attitude I try to maintain. I started thinking about things that I normally do a really good job at not thinking about. Some of the possibilities for my future scare me, and those thoughts just kept playing in my head. Working so hard and struggling to get my lung function back after having the flu makes me worry about what it will be like as I get older. After an evening of freaking out, I have banished those thoughts and have turned my attention to getting better. Now that school is out for summer, I have much more time to spend on my health. I'll be doing extra breathing treatments and steering clear of stress. :)
Other updates from my clinic appointment include the fact that I have once again lost weight. I lost 5 pounds, and I am now down to 108 lb. I also had the privilege of doing my yearly glucose tolerance test which I still don't have the results of. Looks like my summer is going to be filled with breathing treatments, exercise, and eating a ton of food. We shall see how it goes!
I relate to this post more than you will ever know!! I have been there before with pretty much the exact same PFT numbers too! No advice, but wanted to send cyber hugs! You are not alone!
ReplyDeleteKayla Rose, this is your old cheerleader sponsor. I am having similar issues with my diabetes. My numbers are up tho. Your positive attitude helped me. Would you like to get on a walking regimen with me this summer and we can push each other? BTW, you were a beautiful bride.
ReplyDeleteI wish you and I lived much closer because we are on the same summer plan, cyster!!! We'll have to keep each other in check over the next few months! :) Good luck & let me know if you find any tips/tricks this summer!
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