Thursday, March 17, 2011
My Biggest CF Frustration
The problem comes when I start seeing the negative side of the fight. (Before you get too worried, this is not a post about dying. I'm not feeling that blue at the moment.) My greatest frustration caused by Cystic Fibrosis (at least right now) is the fact that no matter how hard I fight, I can never stop fighting. When I make it to my goal, there is no break. I have to keep fighting non-stop or my lung function will go right back down. Then, that takes away what I was working for in the first place. What's more? Even if I keep fighting without faltering even a tiny bit, my numbers will go down eventually. That's the nature of the beast, and it is one of the worst parts of the disease for me. It's times like these that it is hard to motivate myself to continue the fight when I see I'm on the losing side.
It's also times like these that I appreciate everything that I have so much more. I look at my life and see the reasons to continue fighting. I am marrying my best friend in 72 days! I have amazing family and friends, and all of those people make my life worth fighting for!
Posted by Kayla English at 7:21 PM